Monday, February 21, 2011

you just don't understand.

Have you ever said the words you just don't understand? I have. I do.

Ok, so this blog topic is not an Original one. My sister and friend, Melody-Katherine, (From His Point of view) wrote on this topic first. (Click here to Read "Never Alone") But her post inspired me to write one.

A while ago, I had a friend who I had been with since I was born, leave me all alone in the dust for another best friend. I was really hurt! We had been amazing friends, but then, I don't know what happened. Maybe I wasn't cool enough or something. I cried myself to sleep every night. I had told this friend EVERYTHING and it hurt when she left. I was sad. I was mad. I was devastated. I even wrote a poem to try and convict her of what I thought she did wrong. I felt like no one understood. It still hurts to see her. Especially when she with her other friends. I miss her, but I don't.

Even as I'm typing this I'm wondering.... will anyone even understand? I hope you do. I felt like no one understood. I told no one about the pain I was feeling. I only  told God and even though I wish I could say to her, "I hate you" I can't. God is slowly healing my heart. He can heal yours too.

And if you're wondering if anyone out there who understands, there is. His name is Jesus, AKA God almighty. He cares. He knows every part of you. He knit you together. He made your mind, body and spirit. He breathed life into you. He understands, even when no one else does.

I hope you understand my point.

Lots of love,
The Black Swan


  1. Yes, I do understand. I had the same thing happen to me. We were inseperable--the best of friends. But then she met people who were "cooler", and I was left in the dust. For a while, I was hurt, mad, devastated, and confused. But guess? God has healed my heart, and He has shown me how He brought beauty from pain. This girl went down a very different road then I; she's dating guy after guy, giving piece after piece away. She changes to match their type. It's sad. She has more of a mouth now too.
    If she hadn't hurt me so, and if we hadn't grown apart, then I would have been highly influenced to do exactly what she is doing. I was a shy, quiet girl, and I always went along with what she did. If I hadn't been hurt, I would have never learned to grow as an individual, to trust and put God first, and to learn to stand for what God convicts me to.
    He brought beauty from pain---He is awesome. =)

  2. Thanks :) Pretty much the same thing happened to me. she's really changed- and NOT for the better. Thanks for the encouragment... I needed that :)

  3. I loved this post, and I have to say that I've had that happen to me too. I absolutely loved this friend and wanted to be just like her, we had some amazing times together and then she started to reject me. For a long time I was hurt every time I saw her, thought about her, or heard her name. It is REALLY painful to be rejected or abandoned like that. I used to wonder what she would say if she knew how much she hurt me. Thankfully, God helped me through it and I was able to forgive her (at NIKO actually).
    Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that the way you wrote this post really made a lot of sense. You wrote it so gracefully, you amaze me girl!